pain management

'please take good care of them, wherever they are....'

pain, it cums in many shapes and sizes. some cums in the slightest sensation, a subtle tide that builds up around us slowly, until we catches our last breath. some come to us like a big thunderstorm, waves that splashes against our feet as the water level continue to grow higher and higher until we are defeated by da menacing waves of grief.

i've been through many types of pain, but so far none can compare to the pain of loosing someone, especially if that sumone means a lot to you. for me, the pain of going through this is like a nest of fire ants. a few of them will come and find my heart, i will feel a tingling pain as they sink their teeth into it. more will cum following them, and the pain will grow more and more. until finally, as time passes by, my heart will be covered by them as they make a nest out of it. once they've settle down, they will nvr go away, until my heart dries up and there's nuthin left inside.

i admit, i don't do well in handling pain, especially this type of pain. i will act and behave in a different way, usually the complete opposite of how i'm feelin inside. i will keep on mumbling to my self, or worst still, babbling out rubbish to others. but once i'm alone and quiet down, i can't stop the pain from releasing themselves. no matter how hard i try to hold them, they will keep flowing out. i just hope that all this pain, these many many pain, will eventually go away and no longer cling to me....