If I'd already Loved You Too Much

How can i ever love you enough?
If we are meant to be together
But feels so far apart
Two hearts instead of one
Beating at unique paces
Two separate souls, one shouting to be heard
The other deaf and stares at the blue
Can it be that there are two of us
and there will always be?

How can I ever love you enough?
If my grip suffocates you
As your words bruises
All the feelings I've released
If it's space that you demand
And not time that you feel me beside
Differences, we realize
will always be a gap in between
Can I stand closer?

How can I ever love you enough?
If you are nothing but sand
Drifting away from the cracks
of my palm that tries hopefully
To gain a firm grip
At a hollowness that can never be filled
By a misplaced piece of puzzle
Placed by a blind hand
that cracks from loneliness.

i miss this feeling

1000

A thousand years
More than 365000 days of longing
More than 365000 nights of hollow
Incomplete i stood by myself
Waiting for a promise of uncertain realization
Holding on to words that were only said once
As i continue to wait
Alone and alone


A thousand years
More than 8766000 hours of hoping
More than 525960000 minutes of fearing
Everything around me moves by the second
Still like a sculpture welded by time as it passes by
Benumb from the feeling that burns within me
All the more reasons
As i whisper to myself


A thousand sidereal years
A thousand frozen revolutions about the sun
Of 365 days, 6 hours, 9 minutes, 9.54 seconds
As I picture you together in my mind
The contour of your face

Your silhouette grows
In every corner of my heart
Trying to piece together the you I thought I knew
The you who's promises i held onto till this moment
And will keep holding on to
For even if it takes

Another thousand years

when 3 life-less ppl sit on a lotus

just got bek frm a long anticipated yam-char session with my sai-mui & yee-mui.
had a tey-tayrek special, malaysian lemon-ice syrup, and malaysian chocolate ice, plus quite a few sticks of heaven.
it just feels really good to be able to sit down n chat with my Christines. and my yee-mui's man-tao jokes really made me laugh. (thanks, i really needed it)
here's a pretty picture i took of the two of'em. sai-mui said its been a very long time since anyone had given her flowers, so i decided to photoshop some for her. n i'm always a fair tailou, so my yee-mui oso got. muahahaha.....
















ps: aren't they lovely. the flowers i mean =P

a Second in Forever

Feels like I've lived forever
Walking the same pebbled flights
Smelling the same stale walls
Touching the same frozen terminus
Wanting to cross over
but prevented by the boundaries you'd placed
right at the corner of your heart

Feels like I've lived forever
For I've seen all the misplaced sadness
Meager emotions stifling my smiles
As tears quenches the coarse sniveling
You sat there by my side
touched me and whispered cotton words
made me believe that the pain would stop

Feels like I've lived forever
Ever since my sight caught your blithe visage
My ears heard your geometrical nose
My mouth spoke of your hazel eyes
My hands felt your full shoulder
As you pulled me closer
and sprinkled stars over my sky
shaping constellations engraved in these pupils
For how can I not remember
Even if I've lived forever